It’s not often that I get too personal on this blog, but something very big is happening in my life right now.
For many years I’ve had a lump at the base of my neck/top of my back. I’ve had x-rays galore on it, and no one has been able to tell me what it was. I always felt I knew what it might be, but with so many doctors not being able to identify it, I dropped the subject altogether.
Over the last 8 years, I’ve noticed that it’s grown in size. It’s now at the point that necklines on clothes don’t sit right, I don’t feel I can wear my hair up so that it’s not covered by hair or a collared shirt, and it’s actually starting to get uncomfortable to look straight up, or lay on my back. It’s in the way.
During a week that I was feeling particularly down, during one of my GP appointments, I asked my doctor about it. Told him how much it’s been depressing me, how uncomfortable I am and frustrated that I’ve never been able to get it diagnosed properly. This doctor has been our GP for about 4 years now, and has been a wonderful carer to our entire family. He’s wonderful with our son, and always makes sure we’re all taken care of. It’s a level of care that we’ve not experienced with a GP before.
He took one look at it, felt it, and said that he knew exactly what it was. He sent me for an Ultrasound to confirm (I’d never had it ultrasounded before), but he was 98% sure it was a benign lipoma. Don’t google it.. it’s kinda icky. Basically it’s a separate pillow of fatty tissue that sits between the skin and muscle. I’ve always felt it was this, although I never had a name for it.
Long story short, I’m having it removed today. After all this time, it’s finally going away. It’s been a very emotional thing for me, and it really has only started to hit that this fault, this roadblock is going to be gone. I honestly wonder how many things I’ve missed out on during to being insecure about this lipoma.
In preperation, I had been lightly persuaded to go for a new hair do. Largely in part to make things easier for my dear husband. It’s really been a good thing to get done, I’ve cut away most of the heavily dyed/bleached ends, and with my soon to be less bumpy back, it might be the push I need.
It’s day surgery, so ill be in and out in no time. But I’m not sure on recovery. Husband is taking a week off to help, and we’ll see from there. I’m not sure how much of anything I’m going to be able to do. I’ll be up and about as quickly as I can, I have a lot of plans to put into action once I’m recovered.
There is much tea to be drunk!